Daisypath Anniversary tickers

Daisypath Anniversary tickers

Friday, June 20, 2008

pet family...







hmmm...thanx for syahir...ain...my pet sis n pet bro..



im sorry n thanx for everything..



sorry if i ws not a gud pet sis...



1 year ws neva enuf for us to get to know each other very well..but believe me...tis will neva end..



syahir...thanx sgt2...im enjoy being ur pet sis..im gonna miss u..xde sapa lg nak panggil i bila i jalan.."pet sis!!!"...hahaha....seriously..im gonna miss all of tis...



ain..sori..tak brapa rapat...i dunno y...but..u r a gd pet sis..im happy to be ur pet sis...hope both of u will doing fine in tis clg..enjoy ur life ere...hope to see u again...insyaallah..




diamond farewell party at the upper foyer...ws a great time..enjoyed it sooo much..thanx to all da juniors..we gonna miss all of them...

its da tyme to say gudbye..







hmmm...as the title...sedey la..kejap je..sedar tak sedar dah 2 taun kat sini..last nyte g surau..ada majlis wida'..i was crying like hell last nyte..bila peluk syida..aisyah..soraya..fiza..pija ..pam..syara..nana..aku xbleh tahan perasaan sedey..baru aku sedar betapa aku sygkan persahabatan yg tebina antara kami...2 tahun mungkin masa yg singkat..masih byk yg aku blum kenal ttg diorg..namun..segala kenangan..nasihat kan tetap teguh di ingatan...mata dah bengkak sejak smalam...



bila pk pasal ju vern...aisyah..pam..lagi la sedey...kitaorg satu chalet..2 tahun..suka duka..suma kami hadapi bersama..saat aku rasa lemah..kat bahu diorg aku nangis..nasihat..kata2 diorg..suma tue akan aku rindu...ntah bila lagi dpat bertemu...sayangkan diorg......smalam diorg men mahjung smpai kul 4 pg..lawak giler sbb ju vern pun xreti men sgt sbnarnya...men uno..aku tido awal..sedey...aku xdpt nak tahan perasaan..
waktu terasa semakin berlalu
tingalkan cerita ttg kita..
akan tiada lagi kini tawamu
tuk hapuskan semua sepi di hati..
ada cerita ttg aku dan dia...
dan kita bersama
saat dulu kala..
ada cerita ttg masa yg indah
saat kita berduka..saat kita tertawa...
teringat di saat kita tertawa bersama
ceritakan semua ttg kita....
ju vern..pam..aisyah..thanx for everything..im gonna miss our tyme together...our memories..

Thursday, June 19, 2008

im broken...


Hurmmmm…such a bad day..i really wanna cry..cry out load..n let everybody knows how broken am i..last nyte..i dunno if I made a mistake…hmm…


Ya Allah…aku tak tahu apa lg hikmah disebalik semua nie…aku lemah Ya Allah…Kau ambik kebahagian keluarga aku…Kau hancurkan hati aku melihat kehancuran di depan mata aku…berkali2..aku jatuh dan bangun…demi mak dan adik2 aku..apa lagi dugaan tuk aku?...aku korbankan semuanya…aku korbankan cita2 aku…aku korbankan impian aku…pada siapa harus aku mengadu selain Kau Ya Allah?...

Engkau Maha Mengetahui apa yg terbaik tuk aku…pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdirku Ya Allah..aku sanggup jadi sindarela biar pun untuk seumur hidup…asalkan mak..emi…shila…bahagia…xde sapa lagi yg terluka…xde lagi air mata di pipi mak..
Adik2 aku xrasa dan lalui apa yg aku lalui…saat nie aku rasa nak peluk mak kuat2…biar mak tahu betapa hancurnya hati anak mak nie…tp aku xboleh..aku tak boleh biar mak susah hati kerana aku…mak da byk berkorban..

Mungkin apa yg terjadi nie..ada hikmahnya…aku patut keep on da track..xpayah pk pasal benda len..aku xleh selfish..pentingkan perasaan aku je…ntah la..xpelah…hanya satu yg aku mintak…tabahkanlah hati aku…3 hari jer lagi aku da nak balik umah..aku kena kuat..aku xbleh biarkn mak tgk setitis pun air mata nie..kalo x mak akan risau..cukuplah apa yg mak dah lalui..hmmm…2 bulan..xpelah..terperuk di rumah 2 tahun pun aku xkesah..asalkan aku bleh tlg mak…buat mak bahagia…kebahagian aku?..aku bahagia bila mak gembira……………………….

gal's day out in times square,,,







Hola ppl!!im back on da track..satu ari xbukak laptop…I ws off to kl early in da morning..went to the mines wif aisyah..SHOPPING!!! n most interesting part ws ..da tindik subang kat telinga!!!!!huhuhu….20 tahun tue amik masa nak buat lubang kecik tue..huhuu..sakit?yup!!..cm kena gigit rimau..hahaha…
Then, g times square jumpa qida!!!OMG…hampir 2 taun xjumpa dia..kitaorg solat sama2…shopping sama2..n yg lawaknya..aku tolong dia blikan eye shadow..sempat aku bg ceramah jap kat dia..walhal aku sendiri malas nak pakai menda2 tue..shopping byk giler brg…sum present for my pet sis.n pet bro..smalam ada diamond farewell party..diorg de bg hadiah..aku plak xbg pape..huhuhu..tue yg g carik gak hadiah tuk diorg..i bought locket for my sis’s burfday present..hope she gonna like it..hopefully…bli kasut!!!hehehe…siap .Tanya mak dulu sblum bli..mak kata bli jelah…pe lg…angkut ke kaunter..bli new handbag..new cardigan..hairbands..new perfume..foundation…eyeshadow..n byk giler earings..hehehe…

Monday, June 16, 2008

cafe nyte out....splendid tyme..
















ppl!!!!!!...im back!!! kinda addicted to write everything here..hmm..first n foremost im gonna write bout the outing to tg malim wif ajim,ikhwan,aisyah..fikri..syida..pam n nana...OMG!!i dunno wut happened to ajim..he followed us to shop sum girl things n u noe wut,,he keep on repeating da same phrase all over again.." xpayah beli..membazir....u have such shirt already..u dun need one more "...n at last..we tinggalkan dia kat satu kedai ni sbb dia nak tgk cerita indon ape ntah..i dunno...dia keep on complaining how boring ikut girls shopping..after tinggalkan dia..i went back to da same shop n buy da shirt !!!hahaha...then we had tis cendol thing ..n da bad thing ws..xsedap giler!!!huhuhu..dats da first n the last tyme im gonna beli cendol there...we cme back to clg around 5..then ada rehearsal for da gig..cafe' nyte out..we berlatih tepi padang while da boys playing football there...hahaha..

ermmm..then next agenda is cafe nyte out.its da gig!!!memula i ws so malu nak nyanyi..all the boys were there..n can u imagine me??..standing on da stage n sing??..finally we made it...n everyone ws like screaming!!! best giler!!! now i feel like i really want to sing again!!!! giler mic nie!!! hahaha...we enjoyed it soooo much!! we rawk da nyte!!

after habis cafe nyte out..ash ajak lepak kat tepi padang...n suddenly everyone ws joining us..kitaorg lari2 tgh pdg..it ws around 10 pm..hahaha..took lot of pics ...aimran n johan pun join..they were soooo funny.......such a splendid nyte..amik gambar lompat2..lari2..hahaha...i will neva forget bout tis nyte..im gonna miss it so much after tis...

now i think i need bath...n solat...its 12.32am already..thanx guys..i really enjoyed da nyte..da day..i'll put sum pics here..not now..but later..

xoxo..gossip gal..i noe u luv it..keep in touch till da next post..u will find out more...daaaa

Sunday, June 15, 2008

pre-departure briefing...




hmmm...we hd tis so called pr-departure briefing juz now in da GH..i dunno..im not sure if i can make it.Ya Allah..now everything is on u....

da briefing juz to make my life easier when i gt there in UK..hopefully dat might really help me..da funniest part ws..they also talked bout euro trip..n wut we have to do when we cme back to malaysia..which is bout 4 years later..hahaha..i bet i cnt remember all dat things..


ermmm...tis evening im going out to tg malim wif sum of my fwens..hope to enjoy our last moment in tg malim...it hs been a long time since my dinner wif ajim in da classical restaurant there. i still remember our best time together..the dim of da light..we talked bout ourselves n our family all nyte long...we went there bout 3 times..n i think it costs him bout rm200 sumthing..thanx God he hs credit card..miss dat memories so much..our friendship...

ajim pun kuar jap lg..we gonna have ais kacang n cendol there..hahaha...

xoxo...gossip gal..i noe u gonna luv it..keep in touch..find out more next tyme..daaaaa

xoxo...u gonna luv it..

Hey..its 5 am already.. everybody is come back n I bet all of them hve a sound sleep rite now..n im still awake at tis time..watching xoxo..gossip girl..hahaha…juz fee like luv to write sumthing..back to da gossip girl..really wish to be like serena van der woodsen..yeah..instead of being blair who always bump into probs n feel insecure with herself…haha..i dunno if there is serena in myself..but at least its closer.. a bit wild..n believe in herself..juz be myself without think bout wut others might think bout u..

Hey..wuts wrong bout being hot n single?..its nothing..im sure im gonna find a gud guy juz like Dan Humprey…im not looking a perfection..im not looking for a perfect guy..no flaws at all..dats impossible.. I need a normal..make me laugh..even make me cry .. its hard..since im gifted with quite a useful brain ( im not sure if dat is tha rite word for my brain..) hahaha.. hey boy..i dun care who u r..where u r coming from…bout ur past..ur family.. I dun care if u r clever than me or not..i juz want u..someone that I can share my dreams..my sorrows n pains..obviously..im in luv with u…(please..cut it out!)..

Its quite a long tyme im being a single soul…yeah..after wut happened between me n my x..( I dun feel like I want to pronounce his name here..)..but u gotta believe me..i let it go ..im a new person… much better than before… dats y when he wanted me back..i dun care..i juz luv the chase..not u, bad boy!...juz move on n start ur new life..i dun want u..u think u came back after u have everything..ur new career as marketing manager in big company..wif ur expensive car..i will accept u n juz forget wut happened?..u r totally wrong,dude!..im looking forward for a normal guy who I think im in luv with now..yeah..maybe u r rite..he doesn’t know bout me.. bout my feeling rite now..but it doesn’t matter..he will find out sonner or later..=)

Hmmmm..still thinking bout my plan for my long holiday..its not really dat long actually..but at least I have to work on sumthng..first in list, I wanna be a volunteer ..my mum juz told me dat there is a school..im not sure if it is a school..sort of..for kanak2 kurang upaya..dats a gud idea..i luv to be there n help them..u noe how much I luv kids n im into charity events..yes..im not rich enuf to help them but I dun think it shudnt be a reason for me not to help them…mungkin kita menangis sbb xde kasut..but jgn lupa mungkin kat satu tempat lain..there is a gal like u..whos crying because she doesn’t have leg…

Owh..we had picnic last nyte on da field..hahaha..such a great moment to be shared…
Im off to kl next week..cant wait for da gals day out..its shopping time!!..need to buy sum present for my sis’s burfday..n a gift for my dad (for the father’s day of cos!)..everyone talking bout the farewell party in da concorde hotel..its a ball…a red carpet affair..but not for me..im a sindarela..n how im gonna be there without my prince..

Btw..there is a gig tomorrow..its da cafĂ© nite out..n im gonna sing..i noe it sounds funny..juz sit back n enjoy our performance..juvern will play da guitar while the rest will sing…juz try to seize our last days ere..hahhaa..

Xoxo..gossip gal..i noe u gonna luv it..juz keep in touch n find out more next tyme..…daaaa…

..father's day...


Its quite be along tyme im not writing here..its fathers day today..i called him n wish ‘happy father’s day”..its hurt?!yes it was..it is…feel like im missing sumthing in my life..its him..
Last nyte..i ws really scared..aku pun tak tahu kenapa..i ws all alone..sitting on my bed n crying..thinking bout everything…how im gonna fix everything? I cant..i cant…I dunno wut to do..or anyone dat I can speak to…how I miss him so much…after all hes my father…wuteva happened ..nothing will change dat fact..


Abg balik umah smalam..i dunno y..early in da morning I got msg from my sis..talking bout my awards day..my graduation day..deep inside my heart its really hurt..i dun care if I dun have a new dress for dat day..i dun care if I dun have any heels for my dress..i really wanna both of them to be there…looking at me..im ur daughter n today im gonna make u proud..but nothing will change…im alone…u might have no idea how hard for me..to cheat him bout my awards day…I told him its nothing n he doesn’t need to be there..only God knows how much I want him to be there…

Ayah sent me msg..thanx for remembering n wishing him happy fathers day..ayah…I really want u to noe..how much I miss u…how hard I really want to hug u say dat I luv u..i miss everything..all da memories together…plz dun forget everything bout us…I miss my home..every corner in dat house..there were memories between us..i miss to play badminton together..help u clean up our house..singing while u r playing da piano..ur stories…everything..n now there is barrier between us…I cant reach u anymore..

U know how hard it is?seeing u with them?...tears me into pieces….
I dun have anybody…its mum..shila..emi..akak..abg…n no one else..its hard to pretend dat im strong when the whole world knows dat im not…ayah tahu apa yg anak ayah nie doakan setiap malam?..waktu org len tido…anak ayah nie bgn..solat..qiamulail..berdoa..if I can turn back the time..n fix everything….no one will be hurt..u ..mum..n everyone..

Ain tahu..ain byk salah ngan ayah…demi Tuhan..ain xpernah bermaksud macam tue…Ain terpaksa pertahankan mak..adik2….ayah pun tahu kebenarannya….maafkan ain ayah…ain sayangkan ayah…
Im crying..u noe how ugly when ur daughter is crying..im look bad!...but when it comes to u..i cant help myself..but crying…I dun have anybody to talk…im alone…no one will eva care bout me..my feeling…including myself..im too busy thinking bout others..bout mum..bout emi..shila….kalo ain ada rezeki dapat fly….dapat pergi negara org…ain harap ain dapat peluk ayah dekat airport…ain sayangkan ayah..suma org sayangkan ayah..emi..shila..abg..kak aziah…ayah tahu betapa risau hati anak2 ayah nie bila tahu ayah sakit…kami sayangkan ayah…apa yg terjadi mungkin membataskan kami tuk ungkapkan betapa kami sayangkan ayah..tp percayalah ayah…kami ttp sayangkan ayah..Happy Father's Day...may Allah bless you